yesterday evening, after work i went to the 1st place we met. i know he won't be there but i still go. as this is the place which holds our memories.....its been long since i last write a diary.....i cry as i write in my little bedroom. today i'll be going there again. maybe later after tat i'll be going some where near his house to feel close with him. he'll never know............i'm there.
today the is a cold day. on my way to work the sky was dark & it rain heavily in the morning.........its review wats is my heart. i couldn't see any light in my path. the only thing which make me to stay alive is my parents........i live beoz of them.
i haven't been myself since sunday. my tears never stop since tat day. i couldn't eat nor sleep well everyday. i know i should be strong & get on with my life. but its easy to say than to be done. my heart become more & more ugly....i want him to be happy but i couldn't help myself to curse Li Xiao Xiao, in my heart i really hope she will taste back her own medicine & even want her to disappear.....if nt her, i'll be the happiest person in the world. i believe she must be very happy now as she's with the one i love. she build her happiness on another person misery. i felt like calling her & scold her but i can't. as i dun want him to stuck in between......i dun want to loose him completely.
ppl will either wonder why i still love him or scold me being stupid......nobody will understand even though he was my 3rd bf but he was the 2nd person i wanted to get married with. i'm already preapre to leave with him & stay in China, when he decide he dun want to stay in SG anymore. i'm willing to give up everything once he open his mouth. ppl might say i'm being selfish, but who won't when they're with their love one. when i love someone nothing can hold me back.......will GOD ever return the love i once lost? if nt him then never be any others.
。遗留的 不能重来。{10:55:00 AM}
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**__+ 奶嘴与宝贝 +__**
** 女人 **
@ NaMe : Cat（猫咪） @
@ Orgin : Singapore（新加坡）@
@ Nick Name: Baby（宝贝）@
@ Age : 29 yrs old @
@ D.O.B : 10th Feb 1979 @
@ Zodiac : Earth Lamb（羊）@
@ Horoscope : Aquarius（水瓶座）@
@ Height : 164cm @
@ Blood Type : O+ @
@ Favourite colour : Purple（紫色）@
** 男人 **
@ NaMe : Huo Yu Jie（霍豫杰） @
@ Orgin : China, XiAn（中国，西安）@
@ Nick Name: Pacifier（奶嘴）@
@ Age : 28 yrs old @
@ D.O.B : 17th May 1980 @
@ Zodiac : Metal Monkey（猴）@
@ Horoscope : Taurus（金牛座）@
@ Height : 180cm @
@ Blood Type : A+ @
@ Favourite colour : Purple（紫色） @
